Yeah so I wanted this blog to be a bit more "formal". Like actually talking about things. My other blogs elsewhere are where I'm like completely bonkers but since I used to write for a few online publications in my college days and a small series on my shit-blog was gaining a fair deal of traction, I started this to present educated looks at things I'm interested in because I'm a dork. Probably why there's less of a structure but I want to write something more than "wow fuck guys I have some opinions so let me SCREAM AT YOU OMG". So generally, I think of something, I write a lot about it, and then I hope it gives you something nice to think about.
But here's were I break from that for a few moments for a like real life update. The girl behind the paragraphs of blahblahblah.
I recently quit my job. It was around the time I started this blog because I had adsense from running a small beauty and art YouTube channel and so any extra income was great and also for the aforementioned "I want to write things on a slightly more professional and in depth level for those interested in reading them". My job was crappy and I was there for over a year when a lot of drama happened and it got to the point where I couldn't sit by while someone made racist and misogynist commentary while sexually harassing all the female employees. I was this person's main sexual harassment target and when he started advocating that men abuse women, I became super uncomfortable and kept getting sick from just the terror of it. I can probably explain why it effected me how it did in another post but lets just say I have an unhappy past and this person was causing me to now relive certain events every day at work. I ended up getting a bad injury so fuck it. I quit. And I've been job hunting for a few weeks now.
I want to be an animator and I'm writing a comic right now actually. I have a lot of concept art and notes just everywhere. But my degree is in film and where I live doesn't have many opportunities for me. I don't have the money to move to anywhere extravagant, though I hope to go to Toronto after graduate school. But I'd really like to be a storyboard artist. I really like shows like Steven Universe and Adventure Time right now, and I'd love to draw for them. And I do a lot of character designs in my free time. Also I write a lot.
So I'm kinda sad that for now, I'm just looking for jobs doing like data entry where I can not get worn out and have energy to come home and draw and have the money to buy things and save for EVENTUAL SCHOOL. I'm pretty blue about the whole thing because it feels impossible. I'm really skiddish when it comes to promoting myself and my work. I'll post speedpaints on youtube and use a hundred tags on tumblr and instagram but it makes me uncomfortable and I wonder if its even worth the effort. But, unfortunately, even if its NOT worth the effort I'll still do it. I can't be stopped.
So that's life right now. I have a lot of movies I'm trying to see for a few more minis and I wanna write more on Game of Thrones, and I have a lot of gaming things lined up but I'm not sure about how to approach those. And I have two more books I want to write in depth on because I think they're super worth reading and yeah. Idk. That's really all. Hey.
I feel your pain with the job hunting thing. I have a creative writing degree, which might as well be a fancy coaster for all the good it does. Glad to hear you got out of that job though, I really hate people who make others uncomfortable and it's sickening when a person can advocate abusing someone else and get away with it.
ReplyDeleteI thought about doing creative writing, but I wrote so much as it was that I figured "eh, I'll publish eventually, I'll go learn something new".
DeleteAnd thanks :] It was an absolute nightmare, and among people I had once considered "friends" regardless of how much I disagreed with and reported other things they said attacking people's race. You think you can trust someone...right...heh.
No sense sticking around miserable, toxic people that just make you feel worse. There comes a point where you just need to be able to remove yourself from the situation.
DeleteAbsolutely. Its been a breath of fresh air since I quit. I'm happier and I'm producing better art than I have in ages. But I guess "money" is a thing I need so...ugg.. I really want to doxx the company because they're in every major city in every state and it was their HR team who decided that if they ignored it, it would all go away. I learned recently that since I left, people have been quitting left and right. Something's rotten in the electronics retail business. Only a matter of time until more cases like mine crop up I guess and it all goes public.
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